"Oh, tonight I'm feeling fine
I'm alone, just wasting time
No Friday movie nights
Or romantic candle lights "

Hoooly... I am nervous

Actually I should be but I'm not =\
Isn't that strange? Maybe ,secretly I have accepted it
(Yea, right)

Anyway..life is splendid.. School is ok, but I gotta step up my game, the future depends on it XD

I'm feeling really crappy..
And It has nothing to do with my normal problems...

Like I'm not ready for the future, picking Uni's is kinda leaving me confused scratch that it IS leaving me confused


But thats not wats bothering me.. Well it's not the absolute main thing

...I'm actually really scared for the first time since I was like 4
like what if the news is the worst possible thing..

*poof*
Just like that my life would shatter


So i discovered something ...

i'm dead on the inside =\
..well thats what an old-asian Wal Mart employee said to me the other day

I took the road to the left not the "right" one
I'll file down my spikes, Put my evil away
I'll never breathe fire, Unless I'm making flambe
I just need a chance, and to hear you say
You'll turn me round
So yesterday after dropping everyone home after the garba i decided to get onto my roof and look at the sky
..I couldn't have picked a better night!
the sky was clear i could see the stars it was kinda pretty >__>

After staring at the stars for several hours i went to sleep (in my room)
and i woke later that morning, staring at the ceiling smiling for some reason
i guess i had a good dream? Well I did murder like 5 people in my dream (number may vary)'


Its fun being a clinically insane jerk

For fuck sakes Chiraag...
I just got a Spite-cut...

its not a new hairstyle its like..

..well I'm not at liberty to explain

you should just ask
So some wise friends gave me some good advice
...i might just do that

well I'm not officially making that decision cause it would be boring life
but i've learned in the past... year? (well almost a year)
that sometimes its not so great on my end...
especially the feeling

I'm starting to hate that feeling now... It's weird to finally find something that i truly hate
hm.. its like that uneasy feeling... like planning what to do with my life
putting myself back on track. Actually, When i think about it that uneasy feeling isn't the feeling i hate... it has nothing to do with uneasiness. That other feeling, i think i just washed it out of my system (see you in 5 years)

maybe the future will be brighter... With my luck its almost certain it wont be

but one things for sure
i stopped knowing what to do a long time ago

i think its making a U-turn in the other direction

...Fucking great >__>


Just leave me be.. And DIE

So the other day, I had like one of those surges of artistic powers (don't ask)
and like i seriously just ran up to my room and i pulled Penny out of my closet and i was like:
"I am so ganna start playing you now"
if you dont already know penny is my Guiiitar <3

its been like 2-2.5 years since ive touched my guitar
and seriously i dont know why i stopped

I missed her so much <3

not ganna lie im having difficulty getting back in the swing of it

BUT
none the less i think im making good progress

somewhat >__>
So as many of u know kanye west did something to Taylor swift.. Something very bad

I'm ganna kill him...
I'm not kidden he's on my list of people who I must ruin and kill.

He is joinin names such as:
George bush
My grade 2 teacher
The guy who invented the dragon ball evolution movie


And many others... Including people who I ACTUALLY know and see somewhat frequently...

THAT MEANS YOU SHANE.. And a few others

;P


I'm still killing kanye despite some of his good songs




Don't look for answers here...

Just because my cousin Sagar is a genius

*POOF*
So i was walking around todays... well actually i was sitting over by the rape fields

and this stray kitten came to me

and i was like
G'AWWWWWW

and thus I found a new friend and his name is Mr. OmNom

I LOVE Mr. OMNOM <3
I wanna go to Sesame Street

who can take me Sesame Street?

Can you tell me how to get,
How to get to Sesame street....
Upcoming things Chi can look forward too in his coming life (hopefully):

1) ZOMBIES AND BROWNIES
2) Discovering the antidote to love
3) Surprise visit :)
4) Garba <--its a brown thing
5) VANQUISHING MY ENEMIES
6) YOUR DEATH<--- ees my fav
7) Slow dancing in a field
8) finally getting a ukulele
9) Becoming a Pokemon Master

I see you when I close my eyes at night..
Not ganna lie you make dreams sweeter

;D
Tell me the chance hasn't passed us by
Cause baby, the stars have never shined so bright
Nothing can stop us out here

Lets just take tonight, tonight slow
I want to see where this, where this goes
I need you

Id give you today but its not mine yet
Ill ask you to stay here with me till then
I think I'm falling for you

I just want to look in your eyes and see
All that you have looking back at me
I think tonight, I love you
I love you
so today was the first day of school..
to be honest i didnt mind going to school

so the day was pretty fun i have some good classes and some good teachers

and i think... for once in my life im ganna start getting on track..

I'm ganna see if i can actually use my agenda

*cough*
So on labor day me and a group of friends went to Erindale park for a picnic/bbq
the barbecue was pretty fail cause the coals took forever to heat up.. and our supply of lighter fluid was completely used up >___>

Like... 95% of my friends ditched and went for a walk... and like totally left the other 5% sitting there with nothing to do for a good like 2 hours T___T
But you are forgiven...
cause i went for a walk after...
And while walking me and Steffie Chan stumbled across a mysterious candle on the side of the river
AND not ganna lie it was creepy but still kinda cool

there was like the candle.. a blue ball off to the side and a snake slithering through the rocks
and like part of the rock infront of the candle was stained a dark colour

I wanted to blow out the candle and see if i awoke demons and our evil murderous spirits! that would be cool

BUT I DIDNT CAUSE MISS SCARDY PANTS( *cough cough* steff) TOLD ME NOT TO

LOL
SHE WAS SO CREEPED OUT IT WAS RIDICULOUS!!
i shoulda taken a picture or recorded it

^__^ <3


but overall a fun night... despite the mosquitoe bites >__<
Are you a pikachu?, because you are shockingly
beautiful.
I am Pikachi
Let's do it this way
I'll just jump into darkness
And soar in to space
Just so I can see The Stars Shine Bright
...but wait
I never had go into space
Whenever i need to see the stars shine bright
I can just look at you
'Cause the Stars Shine Brighter In Your Eyes
...and I'm sitting here eating plain slices of bread.... drinking a mixture of sprite, "citrus fizz" and some alcohol that was lying around ;D

I'm actually not much for drinking
..but eh

So not ganna lie today (well actually yesterday) was pretty BOMB
It was sorta hectic... even more hectic for others
but it was still fun!!

hm...
I just got the urge to go slow dance in a field
i duno why
just popped into my head while sitting in Mara's van

fuck I'm tired... but can't sleep

HOLYCOW

...I'm not in a good mood now, its not a bad mood.. its just not a good one

hmm this week has been kinda crappyy for meh

"needs hug"
so right now.. i'm kinda feeling really crappy

maybe it was from the drinks last night
...more probably it was the depressing mood just carrying on during the week

i honestly don't know how to feel right now
...and what makes me feel worse is

I've been unintentionally brushing peoples off
...so sorry i didn't mean it <3 :)

cause all i need is a good friend right now...
not to talk about anything
...i just need a good friend(s)

I still need that hug & a smile on my face

...I gots some 'splaining to do

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