Chiraag In A Nutshell [1.0]
11.22.2009, 9:36 PM
I grow tired of hearing myself complain
But I still wont do anything to stop myself
..So I've been thinking, I really Don't wanna go to Uni. I mean I do want to go! but not now
I feel I've been studying and stressing myself for the 100 years I've been alive.. well that's a lie I have never tried in school!
But still wouldn't it be nice If could take a few extra months off and just relax. To finally put my mind to rest. So I could stop thinking... and stop caring... and stop stressing!!!
Sadly life doesn't work like that, I have to go ahead with my stressful depressing life. Sure there are fun times with my friends and family, but it's not always great..
I guess I'm going to have to spend the next 4 years (and maybe more) putting more stress on my heart...still get those random moments of anger where my blood pressure rises and I either go ballistic or I suppress it till it builds up and I go ballistic!
(Kind of like The Hulk... Except I Don't Turn Green And Smash things)Basically.. If you see me with my head down, I'm not sleeping I'm just tuning the world out so I can suppress my RAGE
(It's kind of a meditative state but not really)Both ways I'm (literally) killing myself. Its been 3 months since I've known.. 3 months since I've been keeping watch... 3 months of
hoping nothing would happen,
So far so good... well kinda
but anyway I think i just have to make it till the summer or at least Christmas break! Then I can Relax and put myself to rest and sleep in :)
..So
LIFE I raise my glass to you! CHEERS you jerk
*raises Winnie the Pooh mug*P.S I just realized this counts as complaining
Name:Chiraag a.k.a Teh Chi
Age: 3008
School:I learn from experience
Hates: A world with me in it
Likes: Anything that doesn't get in my way
Chiraag In A Nutshell [1.0]
11.22.2009, 9:36 PM
I grow tired of hearing myself complain
But I still wont do anything to stop myself
..So I've been thinking, I really Don't wanna go to Uni. I mean I do want to go! but not now
I feel I've been studying and stressing myself for the 100 years I've been alive.. well that's a lie I have never tried in school!
But still wouldn't it be nice If could take a few extra months off and just relax. To finally put my mind to rest. So I could stop thinking... and stop caring... and stop stressing!!!
Sadly life doesn't work like that, I have to go ahead with my stressful depressing life. Sure there are fun times with my friends and family, but it's not always great..
I guess I'm going to have to spend the next 4 years (and maybe more) putting more stress on my heart...still get those random moments of anger where my blood pressure rises and I either go ballistic or I suppress it till it builds up and I go ballistic!
(Kind of like The Hulk... Except I Don't Turn Green And Smash things)Basically.. If you see me with my head down, I'm not sleeping I'm just tuning the world out so I can suppress my RAGE
(It's kind of a meditative state but not really)Both ways I'm (literally) killing myself. Its been 3 months since I've known.. 3 months since I've been keeping watch... 3 months of
hoping nothing would happen,
So far so good... well kinda
but anyway I think i just have to make it till the summer or at least Christmas break! Then I can Relax and put myself to rest and sleep in :)
..So
LIFE I raise my glass to you! CHEERS you jerk
*raises Winnie the Pooh mug*P.S I just realized this counts as complaining
