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Chiraag Entries

Dear brain, I ramble on and on
8.17.2011, 9:55 PM
I'm loosing you, doesn't feel like you try but I guess I can't really say anything cause well I'm a hypocrite and kind of a jerk a lot of the time yeah don't even know what my problem is anymore.. I guess I can't accept things cause I find them unacceptable. well whatever what I think doesn't mean anything anyway.
I hate when my brain randomly throbs in pain, it's like my brain is rejecting all my thoughts and emotions
I guess it's tired of me. I would be, I know a lot of other people are too.

someone made a good point a long time ago, "you need to have something to brag about to have an ego" and although I'm paraphrasing that it's kinda true. nothing then something then nothing. wow where is my brain taking me today.

I blame myself for this downward spiral, coulda prevented it but I guess I took things for granted and didn't try as hard as I know I shouldve. maybe it would be different...

I had a weird dream today I really hated it.. cause it's realistic, I guess it's like those bad dreams people get when they're upset or mad at someone they care about

working sucks, cause when I'm there I have to much time to think and I remember why I started working..

I don't like you brain.. well I do but I just don't like you that way.. you suck, you're the best, I can't really think without you though so I guess we're stuck together

I hate it when people dont get back to me about things..like seriously it's one thing to think about it.. and even forgetting is forgivable cause it's whatever but pretending to think about it or pretending to remember it is just..Wtf

eh im busy now.. and I guess it's a good thing, I'm better off with my own thoughts, It's easier to pull myself back to a rational and logical place, less emotions and more realism. That's who I was before

w.e no point in talking to myself it's like keeping a diary
bye brain, you can fuck around with my subconscious while I sleep and maybe forget
but you'll just wake me up in two hours
you started doing that again
not cool.

Night.

**possible typos